Hi guys...
I'm back..
yes..
in the office now...
very sian cos nth much to do...
things start to run about in my mind again...
argg...
dunno why...
was wonder why am I working at cpf...
pay not bad...
but...
I don't think I learn things here...
my dept is small...
and most of the time...
my dept left with noone in the office except me...
maybe I feel lonely ba...
hahaha...
dunno...
noone I can talk to...
and even there's ppl around...
they don't really chat with one another other than work....
zzzz.....
just wonder I did I pass this 2 months plus in the office...
lolx...
ok...
was think that I might change job...
but as for now...
I just continue with this job...
cos...
it's a 1year contact base...
hehehe...
after 1 year...
might think of changing ba...
cos I think this really doesn't seem to be the job I'm looking for...
was hoping to get myself into hotel line...
lolx...
think the job there are quite fun...
lol...
not sure about that yet...
hmm...
ok...
end of this thought...
another one is...
my pay...
not about the salary amount or delay.... (they did not delay)
but to say that it's me...
yup...
I have problem in keeping my money...
lolx...
as in spending power is highe than to save...
lolx...
wonder why ppl can save up so much...
wonder why my friends have the money to spend as and when they like...
like buying luxury stuff, oversea trip and etc...
lol...
was wonder where my money gonna...
lolx...
till now...
I save nil of my money after getting 2 month plus paid liao...
so angry with myslf la...
lolx...
another thought that runs in my mind...
it's...
why can't I control myself...
on weight, spending, saving and etc...
I'm fat... ( when meet up with friends... they always say so)
that makes me lost my self-confident...
hahaha...
think they dunno about it or they know but they just simply hack care...
zzzzz......
everytime when I was about to meet up with them to celebrate for so and so birthday or to meet up for dinner and etc...
I have to first prepare myself from the insult and bad comment they made...
hai..
wonder am I really that fat...
hahaha...
come to think about it...
it makes me feel like crying under my pillow and don't really wish to go out to meet them...
hai...
even I have low self confident...
I still can't presuade myself to lost weight, control what I ate and lost weight to get my confident back....
zzzz.....
I just dunno why...
hai...
why others of my friends can do it but not me...
zzzzzzzz........
ok la...
enough of the thought...
lolx...
just to stress up with all this???
lolx...
think to ppl....
it might be a piece of cake...
but to me...
it's so hard to do and plan what I want...
ok...
don't need to comment or say anything like you can but you did not try...
and what so ever...
k la..
end here...
tata... =)